My 18-year-old self made the decision that I would be done having children by the age of 30, because I didn't want to be an old mom (obviously my 18-year-old-self was a freaking idiot!).
I don't want to turn 30, but I'm really relishing moving on to a new chapter in my life. I'm ok with leaving the twenties behind me. I'm sad about my fleeting youth, but hopeful for a new beginning.
As I've blogged previously, I am still doing Weight Watchers. It's been 16 weeks, and I haven't been the most diligent dieter. Sure, I do great most of the time. I've also cut out a TON of my snacking. And I've lost 11 pounds. But after 16 weeks, I really had hoped to have lost more weight. Or to have been down a size.
June 14th marks our 3rd wedding anniversary. August 21st is my 30th birthday. It's a big summer! Which leads me to my newest goal...
I will be a size 10 by my 30th birthday.
I've always been embarrassed about what size pants I wear. Always. I'm slightly bigger boned, and even when I've been so skinny that my hip bones have been pointy and a danger to those passing me on the street, I've never been smaller than a size 8. When I was a size 8, I looked anorexic.
On our wedding day, I was a size 10. It worked for me. I felt great at that size, even though I was still ashamed to admit my double-digit size. What is up with that? I hate feeling like I'm fat just because I can't (and will never be able to) fit into a size 6. I guess this is the effect that media's fixation on women's weight has on us. Sad, right?
Here are some photos taken around the time of my wedding, in June of 2008:
|Me bossing my sister around, as usual! :)|
|Buster and I|
And a bit more recent:
|No, that's not Carnie Wilson. It's me.|
So yeah. You can tell by my face that I've chunked up a bit. I don't even have any full body shots to post because I've been avoiding cameras like the plague! Now I have lost 11 pounds since those pics, but I'm nowhere near where I want to be quite yet. I'm currently in a size 14 (sometimes a 12...).
I bought the 17-Day Diet book last night at Walmart. Not really worth the money, imo, but I'm still going to do it. It works ok with Weight Watchers, and then after the 17 days I might just go back to my normal Weight Watchers (which will feel like a treat, I'm sure!). The 17-Day Diet is basically South Beach or Atkins, but a little more lenient on the fruit. Oh, they want you to eat yogurt twice a day as well.
Along with the new diet (which will start after I properly hit up the grocery store), I'm am going to walk or hula-hoop every day. Yes, I said hula-hoop. I bought one of those weighted hoops. Fancy, right? I have yet to use it, but I'm sure it will be TONS of fun... (sarcasm!).
If you read this far, congratulations! Now you will know what I'm talking about when I mention 10 for 30!