I'm so tired of my news feed on Facebook (Babybook anyone?) being dominated by baby stuff today. I'm pissy and infertile, and I feel a headache coming on. I am hungry. I'm eating 1200 calories a day. I gave up candy and cookies and cokes. I have lost 20 fucking pounds. I'M IN PRIME SHAPE FOR HOUSING A SMALL HUMAN IN MY UTE.
I just want a baby. That's all. Just a baby. There are tons born every day, lots to mothers who don't even want them.
I've jumped through hoops. I've injected hormones derived from the piss of post-menopausal women into my abdomen. Buster and I have gotten in countless hormone-induced fights.
How much more of myself do I need to give?
Well, nothing more from myself. All infertility is requiring of me to have a baby is money. Lots of it.
I'm bitter and jaded today.