Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I am still infertile.


Welcome ICLWers! And hi to my followers! :)

Quick TTC summary for ICLWers:
We have been trying to get pregnant since 2007. I have never been pregnant. We have done 7 medicated cycles, 5 failed IUI cycles. I was recently diagnosed with elevated natural killer cells and antiphospholipid antibodies by Dr. Sher. We are currently trying to get some bills/credit paid down so that we can move forward with IVF with Dr. Sher in Las Vegas.

Basically, it's been (another) rough year. My former RE was ridiculously awful. And finally learning that we wasted months upon months and more money than you can shake a stick at, well... it is enough to leave you gutted. It certainly left me gutted. Oh, and fat. Yep, fat.

I gained 40 pounds since my wedding, and 20 of those since starting fertility treatments. Failing at TTC is pretty much the worst thing you can do to your body. Crazy hormones, roller coasters of emotion, emotional binge eating. Sounds so fun, right?! Yeah, not so much.

We are on a "break" at the moment. We are still BD'ing during my fertile time, but with no expectations and no obsessing. We are just having pretty awesome sex, and I for one have missed it! Planned sex sucks, no way around it.

I've also lost about 18 pounds since January, when I started Weight Watchers. I've been exercising 5+ days a week, and eating healthy. It's a new me (well, sort of. I am still infertile, and unfortunately my identity seems forever intertwined with my inability to conceive).

So there's my year in a nutshell.

Tomorrow I will be telling the best story ever. Ok, maybe not the best ever, but it's pretty amazing. It has nothing to do with TTC, and everything to do with shoe shopping, wrongly accusing strangers of stealing shoes, and embarrassment.

13 comments:

  1. Yay for awesome sex!! And the weight loss and the exercising and healthy eating.:) I, for one, cannot wait to read tomorrow's story in printed word since I already know it otherwise. :D

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  2. Can't wait for the big story! :) Congrats on the 18 lbs... that's awesome!

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  3. Happy ICLW. I'm definitely looking forward to tomorrow's story!

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  4. Yay for your weightloss, congratulolos atcha. COMPLETELY agree with the fun sex as opposed to baby-making sex, thats 1 thing I really appreciated on our ttcbreak

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  5. I hear ya on the weight gain! I've gained 30 lbs since all this.

    Can't wait to hear the awesome news tomorrow!

    ICLW #6

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  6. congrats on the weight loss, that's great!! and hooray for awesome sex!! :) haha

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  7. I gained close to forty during my almost four years of TTC. Some from the meds, but mostly from eating my feelings. And I lost it all with WW too! 18 pounds down - good for you! You're on your way!

    I've heard wonderful things about Dr. Sher. Sounds like you'll be in great hands. I have elevated NK cells as well - treated with Humira, Dexamethasone and Intralipid Infusions. It's very treatable!

    Wishing you the best!

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  8. Happy ICLW. So sorry for all the struggles you are facing.

    Hoping you get some good news soon!

    PS - your furbaby is adorable. : )

    ~Suzy
    ICLW #53

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  9. Love the photos on the last post of you and your husband--you guys are a gorgeous couple! I totally hear you on the babymaking sex. My husband complains all of the time about how unfun it is to perform on command!

    Can't wait to hear the shoe story. I could use a laugh today!

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  10. Huge congrats on your weight loss and I hope the new RE/clinic brings you all the success the last one seemed to sabotage.

    ICLW #10

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  11. Hey there. Just wanted to say hello and congrats on the weight loss and upcoming new doctor. It's always nice to move forward to the next thing!

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  12. Thank God for a clear diagnosis. I sure wish Dr. Sher will help you in fulfilling your baby dreams.

    And way to go on the weight loss!

    iclw #36

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  13. "On a break Sex" is amazing and the reconnection you will get with your husband will do a world of good when you come off your break!

    Good luck with your next cycle and Congrats on the weight loss!!

    Happy ICLW
    #96

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