Tuesday, June 21, 2011
I am still infertile.
Welcome ICLWers! And hi to my followers! :)
Quick TTC summary for ICLWers:
We have been trying to get pregnant since 2007. I have never been pregnant. We have done 7 medicated cycles, 5 failed IUI cycles. I was recently diagnosed with elevated natural killer cells and antiphospholipid antibodies by Dr. Sher. We are currently trying to get some bills/credit paid down so that we can move forward with IVF with Dr. Sher in Las Vegas.
Basically, it's been (another) rough year. My former RE was ridiculously awful. And finally learning that we wasted months upon months and more money than you can shake a stick at, well... it is enough to leave you gutted. It certainly left me gutted. Oh, and fat. Yep, fat.
I gained 40 pounds since my wedding, and 20 of those since starting fertility treatments. Failing at TTC is pretty much the worst thing you can do to your body. Crazy hormones, roller coasters of emotion, emotional binge eating. Sounds so fun, right?! Yeah, not so much.
We are on a "break" at the moment. We are still BD'ing during my fertile time, but with no expectations and no obsessing. We are just having pretty awesome sex, and I for one have missed it! Planned sex sucks, no way around it.
I've also lost about 18 pounds since January, when I started Weight Watchers. I've been exercising 5+ days a week, and eating healthy. It's a new me (well, sort of. I am still infertile, and unfortunately my identity seems forever intertwined with my inability to conceive).
So there's my year in a nutshell.
Tomorrow I will be telling the best story ever. Ok, maybe not the best ever, but it's pretty amazing. It has nothing to do with TTC, and everything to do with shoe shopping, wrongly accusing strangers of stealing shoes, and embarrassment.