Wonder
On the TTC forums I frequent, there is a section entitled "Ask Your Questions to Our BFP Members." Recently I find myself itching to post there. Not about symptoms or anything exciting, as I never have symptoms. Or anything exciting, for that matter.
I want to know what it feels like to see a positive pregnancy test. To feel that immense joy coupled with anxiousness. To know how it feels to tell Buster that there is a part of him and me all mixed together in my belly. Or what it feels like to go to your first ultrasound and see a little formation that you know to be a baby on the screen. How it feels to hear the heartbeat of the little being that was created out of love.
I wish those feelings/emotions were bottled up and I could take some, just to see what it's like. I know it wouldn't be real, as I'm not pregnant, but I want to know regardless.
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In other news, I think I ovulated yesterday. I did not have any O pains, as I rarely do, but today I do not have any fertile CM, which I have had the past 4 or 5 days. I'm just ready for this cycle to be over so I can start my next. I'm really hopeful for it, which could be my downfall. But at this point, hope is all I have.
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I love this song. Colin Meloy is the lead singer of The Decemberists, and he is amazing. I think this song is about his lady being pregnant. If it's not, it is certainly what I think of when I hear it.
I want to know what it feels like to see a positive pregnancy test. To feel that immense joy coupled with anxiousness. To know how it feels to tell Buster that there is a part of him and me all mixed together in my belly. Or what it feels like to go to your first ultrasound and see a little formation that you know to be a baby on the screen. How it feels to hear the heartbeat of the little being that was created out of love.
I wish those feelings/emotions were bottled up and I could take some, just to see what it's like. I know it wouldn't be real, as I'm not pregnant, but I want to know regardless.
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In other news, I think I ovulated yesterday. I did not have any O pains, as I rarely do, but today I do not have any fertile CM, which I have had the past 4 or 5 days. I'm just ready for this cycle to be over so I can start my next. I'm really hopeful for it, which could be my downfall. But at this point, hope is all I have.
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I love this song. Colin Meloy is the lead singer of The Decemberists, and he is amazing. I think this song is about his lady being pregnant. If it's not, it is certainly what I think of when I hear it.
I know that feeling hun. I have seen a BFP, but I am yearning to see an ultrasound. You will get there sweetie. I hope it's this cycle, but if not - I have some seriously high hopes for you for your upcoming plans!!!!
ReplyDeleteKara- I hope you experience all those feeling soon! (hugs)
ReplyDeleteIt's like the best high you've ever had - or in my case, could imagine... :) It's wonderful. Once you get those lines, you think it's all worth it - all the pain to get there has all been for something! It was so lovely, I can't wait to feel that way again... Keep feeling that hope, it will keep you going! I really hope it's your turn very soon!
ReplyDeleteI'm with Lisa. I want to know what it's like to have an u/s and actually see a baby...not an empty uterus. I want to know what it feels like to really be pregnant. I know that longing and yearning well...all I can say is hold on to hope. We'll all have it fulfilled someday!
ReplyDeleteCan't help you on the feeling . . . never seen two lines. But Iimagine it being awesome.
ReplyDeleteI am excited for your new plans!
Yeah, I'm with meggola and Lisa as well. I've gotten my one faint BFP, and it was amazing, but I want to get an u/s and see a healthy baby growing inside of me.
ReplyDeleteI want to experience pregnancy, and lord knows I want to have that euphoric feeling of when I hold my baby in my arms for the first time.
We'll all have that, I just hope sooner rather than later.
I really hope you get to see a BFP...I promise that you will soon. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteSigh... won't that be the day? Good luck hun!
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