Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I'm trying to let it go...

I took one day off from peeing on sticks. That was CD14. I was feeling pretty good about our timing. Fast-forward to yesterday after work. CD15. I peed on an opk. It was positive! WTF?!


So, of course, I freak out. I curse myself for doing the IUI on Friday. I wallow in my own self-pity for a couple of hours. Buster tries to pull me out of my despair, and only half succeeds. I decide that I will take my temp in the morning, and go from there. If it is not in my post-O range, I will call my RE. If it is, I will let it go.

This morning, my temp was 97.51, which is in my post-O range. So, I'm doing my best to let go of this worry and stress. I can't do anything about it now. It is done, and will either work or not work. None of my incessant worrying about timing will do any good.

I'm also tired of ruining Buster's moods with my needless worrying. We have both decided that I have some kind of anxiety issues, as I will worry about anything and everything. If we were not TTC, I'd consider seeing a doc and getting some meds to help with my anxiety. But for now, I'm just going to have to try to control it.

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 I have a couple friends who could use some support.

First, Lisa at Pursuit of Pregnancy is going in for her Egg Retrieval tomorrow. This is her second attempt at IVF, and she has a great new doc and a fabulous protocol for this cycle! She is the sweetest person I know, and I can't wait until she is a mom!

Second, Aub at The Deep Silence of a Long-Suffering Heart got some unwanted news this week.The results from their post-coital test showed that all of the sperm were dead. This was quite a blow, especially after a perfectly-timed Femara cycle. The news came days after ovulation, so she has quite a wait in front of her. Her blog is fairly new, and I know she would appreciate any support offered.
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On another note, I have my second Weight Watchers meeting today. I'm excited to see if I've lost any weight. I've been doing really well as far as my diet is concerned, so hopefully I will have dropped a pound or two.

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And finally, a song. Sweet Avenue by Jets to Brazil. Disregard the picture of Damien Rice in the video. I don't know why it's there, but there were hardly any versions of this video to choose from on YouTube, and this one has the best sound quality.

12 comments:

  1. Thinking of you! I hope that the IUI worked out and gets you a BFP!

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  2. um you might want to check out my blog of the everlasting positive opks...FX that your timing was perfect and that you'll be getting a bfp soon. Don't freak out too much.

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  3. Hi Tillie! No, I didn't trigger because we thought I was already surging. I never even went and picked up the prescription :/

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  4. From my experience with IUI (4 of them) worrying about whether or not you did it right after that fact is not going to help. I KNOW that is easier said to done. But, the more you worry, the more you worry....that's all you're doing. The IUI is done, you BD'd as much as you could post-IUI, you got plenty of sperm where it needs to be. The best thing you can do is just wait and see. My good friend went through a few IUI's, on the one that actually worked she had already ovulated by the time they did the IUI, but they decided to go through with the IUI anyway. It just goes to show that you never know. You just have to trust that you did what you could, and stop stressing! Good luck....I hope this is the one for you guys!

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  5. I am a natural worrier myself and can relate to the tension it creates between my hubby and I. I always just try my best to keep reminding myself to stay calm and strong. (easier said than done, right?) Fingers crossed!

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  6. It's so hard not to worry and what if, but try not to - what's done is done and hopefully it did the job! You did what you could. Thinking of you :)

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  7. Now, I've never done the OPK thing (since I went straight to IVF) BUT - I swear I've heard that you get positives OPK's for at least a few days after ovulation. Which makes sense, because that hormone surge wouldn't just go away. I'm thinking happy thoughts for you lady!

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  8. Thanks, friend for sending support my way. I've gotten some really sweet comments and I have you to thank for that. I know in my heart that we both "O"ed on Saturday. You are my cycle twin! Your timing was perfect. Now for the love of God, STOP PEEING ON THINGS!!!!! :) <3

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  9. Opks caused me so much anxiety during my IUI cycle as well. I forced myself not to test after the procedure was done with (or temp). Having said that, I agree with calling your RE or nurse tomorrow to see what advice they offer, and if nothing else, to let them know that opks may not be the best, or sole way, to time your IUIs! Fingers crossed that the timing caught the egg regardless!

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