Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Well I want a better place or just a better way to fall
Do bad things just keep happening to me? Or does it just seem like that, because I focus on the bad and I can't focus on the good?
How do you focus on the good? Are there steps that must be taken? Is there a book I can read? A website? Help!
Today we took the Jeep to get the window fixed. They were replacing the window and the regulator (Mount up?! Warren G joke? No? Fine!). I asked them to please check the front brakes as well, because I have to press really hard to brake, and it makes me nervous. If I was ever in a slam-on-my-brakes situation, I can't guarantee that I wouldn't hit the car/pedestrian/groundhog/pregnant woman (KIDDING!) in front of me.
I get a call several hours later. Good news! The regulator did not need replaced, so instead of the estimated $475 to fix the window, it was only $315. Yay!
Bad news! The front brakes desperately need replaced, along with the rotors (which are rusted). So, that's another $350 or so. Awesome. I love dropping lots of money on a "new" car.
So after that phone call, I go back to my desk. I get a request for a file to be sent to a co-worker. I go to open up my "projects" folder on my external hard drive. Um... it's missing. Not there. This contains ALL of my files for work. All of them. It looks like either a power outage or a frozen computer somehow corrupted my external hard drive in the past couple of days (on Friday that projects file was there).
So, I'm running a data rescue software right now, hoping it will find the missing folder. If so, I (or my office...?) will have to purchase the program so I can get my folder back. I'm actually kind of in shock about it. I'm hoping after the 15 hour scan on the 8TB (yes, terabytes) of space, my folder shows up. If not, I really don't know what I'll do. I can send it away to the company to try to restore the files, but that will cost $1200 or so (because there are 4 actual hard drives in the external drive).
Also, it seems like everyone is pregnant. Or has a baby. I am surrounded by them again. And I just can't take it right now.
We are not trying this month. I'm not sure Buster knows that, but I am not going to worry about trying. I am more focused on getting these tests done and trying to figure out a cause, rather than riding this fucking roller coaster any longer. I just want off. So I'm stepping off of it for a month. It will be so weird to not be disappointed when AF arrives...
The title of today's post is brought to you by Modest Mouse! Here is the song, Bukowski: