Today, I vow to stop being sad. I have mourned the pregnancy(ies) that have never happened, I have mourned for the baby we have yet to make. I have mourned the absence of a compassionate, caring doctor. Now, I'm done.
Buster tries to get me to focus on the good. It's really difficult for me, though. I'm a glass half-empty kind of girl. I think I need to buy a self-help book. Something to really get me looking in the right direction.
After a long talk yesterday, Buster and I are postponing IVF until next summer. We want to get some credit cards and a car loan paid off before we take on $10k+ more in debt. Which, I think everyone can agree, is a wise decision. I know it's a wise decision. I still took it hard. I cried, a lot. But I feel at peace with that decision now.
No more stressing about TTC, for a while at least. Yes, we are going to continue to try naturally, and maybe we'll get a miracle. But, if not, I won't be disappointed because I'm not expecting it.
I am keeping the appointment on Friday with Dr. Sher, because I'm interested to hear what he has to say, especially in regards to someone (like myself) with unexplained infertility. I'm hoping I will know after that appointment if he is the doctor I want to go with. But, like Buster says, we have time. No need to rush to a decision.
Lindsay at Waiting for That Positive is having a giveaway! Some OPK sticks and a pair of super-cute bird earrings!! Check it out! She is a really inspiring blogger. I love how she posts lists of positive things in her life. It makes me realize the positive things in my own life.
So I'm assuming most of you have seen or heard about that Extreme Couponing show on TLC. I've not seen it, but it seems to be a craze, especially on the pregnancy & motherhood forums. I am thinking of foraying into couponing a bit, but I'm a little afraid because I think I have slight hoarding tendencies. I don't want to end up with 45 tubes of toothpaste just because they were on sale! But nonetheless, I'm setting up my printer today and might take a gander at some Walgreens and CVS coupons, and see what I can get for basically nothing.
Since Buster and I decided to pay off some bills prior to IVF, I think it can only help if I could save a few bucks (or more) on our weekly grocery bills!
We (finally) watched Black Swan last night! I've been wanting to see it forever, but we never got around to seeing it in the theater. I loved it! It was creepy, yes. A bit disturbing as well, but lovely all the same. I love Natalie Portman. Ever since I saw her rocking out to the Shins in Garden State, she can do no wrong in my book!