I am happy to announce that today is CD2!
AF decided to arrive yesterday, and this was the most excited I've ever been to be bleeding heavily.
I've sent an email to my clinic. Hopefully I will hear from them today regarding my next step.
I also wanted to clarify my post from late Saturday night. Buster and I were out with our friends and family celebrating his 30th birthday. We had both been drinking, and we were really enjoying ourselves.
The comment that moved me to blog in a bar was from my cousin. Her mom and my mom are twin sisters, and we are extremely close to them.
My cousin is only 22, and I know she did not know any better. She meant no harm in her comment. But, what saddens me is that my aunt is making off-handed remarks about surrogacy. Not only does this infer that something is wrong with me, it's also completely ignorant regarding the investment of choosing surrogacy. Emotional investment, financial, etc.
My infertility is not something I take lightly. Off-handed comments that start "You should just..." are going to anger me. Regardless.
There is no "just" in infertility. And sure, I mean that in more ways than one. There is no "just" in the way my aunt meant it. Nothing comes easy with this, especially decisions. Especially decisions about having someone else carry your child.
And there is no "just" in infertility. Nothing good, upright, deserving. Infertility is, by nature, unjust.