I can only be decisive for a minute or two.
Yesterday I was pretty convincing in my post, si? I was completely sold on the 2-month TTC break idea. I was at peace with it.
Well, a mere 3 hours after I posted my blog entry, Buster calls me from work during his break. He tells me he spoke with his co-worker (the one whose wife is taking Clomid!) last night and yesterday they had done their first IUI. I was kind of floored when Buster told me that he has TTC conversations with co-workers. And they were talking about IUIs!!! How bizarre!! But anyway, he proceeded to tell me how they laughed about the paltry selection of materials in the jack-off room. After Buster was done recalling their conversation to me, I said, "Man, that makes me want to do another IUI."
Buster replied, "Me too."
Him too?! I couldn't believe it! I knew he was ok with doing the IUI before, but it had been my idea and he just kind of followed along, going with whatever decisions I made. After all, I was the one doing the research on the subject. But to hear him openly say that he wants to do another IUI... it was a moment, lemme tell ya.
So we talked about our "break" and if we could adjust it to make room for an IUI. We decided, together, that taking the month of December off from TTC to relax and enjoy the holidays will be great for us, and that in January we will return to the RE and do an IUI, even though we won't have the dual insurance coverage. My insurance covers 80%, so that's pretty darn good!
I would like to apologize for my wishy-washyness. I guess I should have forewarned you that I am, quite possibly, the most indecisive person ever. But, I can't ignore Buster openly voicing his desire to do another IUI! It makes me happy to know that he wants to try whatever we can to make a baby. So, bring on December and a month of not worrying about TTC!
Well, a mere 3 hours after I posted my blog entry, Buster calls me from work during his break. He tells me he spoke with his co-worker (the one whose wife is taking Clomid!) last night and yesterday they had done their first IUI. I was kind of floored when Buster told me that he has TTC conversations with co-workers. And they were talking about IUIs!!! How bizarre!! But anyway, he proceeded to tell me how they laughed about the paltry selection of materials in the jack-off room. After Buster was done recalling their conversation to me, I said, "Man, that makes me want to do another IUI."
Buster replied, "Me too."
Him too?! I couldn't believe it! I knew he was ok with doing the IUI before, but it had been my idea and he just kind of followed along, going with whatever decisions I made. After all, I was the one doing the research on the subject. But to hear him openly say that he wants to do another IUI... it was a moment, lemme tell ya.
So we talked about our "break" and if we could adjust it to make room for an IUI. We decided, together, that taking the month of December off from TTC to relax and enjoy the holidays will be great for us, and that in January we will return to the RE and do an IUI, even though we won't have the dual insurance coverage. My insurance covers 80%, so that's pretty darn good!
I would like to apologize for my wishy-washyness. I guess I should have forewarned you that I am, quite possibly, the most indecisive person ever. But, I can't ignore Buster openly voicing his desire to do another IUI! It makes me happy to know that he wants to try whatever we can to make a baby. So, bring on December and a month of not worrying about TTC!
'Tis the nature of the beast, I've found... I change from hour to hour! Something as inocuous as seeing a mom and baby out shopping can swing me back into action (after swearing I was on a break).
ReplyDeleteI totally get it! There are times I want to try everything before doing an IUI, then other times I am like . . . why wait???
ReplyDeleteThat is great you have 80% coverage, both of us have 0%, so that is part of the decision making process!
Good luck on the IUI and maybe this one month break will be easier to be at peace with, since you know you are "doing something" in January!
Don't apologize to us! We are excited for you and support whatever you and Buster want to do!! 2011 is going to be a great year for you guys! :)
ReplyDeleteI could have written this post(minus the IUI lol)
ReplyDeleteI have been so ready for this long nice ttc break, but this week the more I thought about it..the more I was like No i dont wanna stop trying. I cant stop til we get our baby! So we are doing the same, kinda...we are taking a Christmas break and re-evaluating in January what we are going to be doing!
No apologies necessary my dear! Yayyy!
ReplyDeleteI agree no apology needed. I go back and forth constantly too. Its hard not too. So many things can change decisions you have made. Plus you have a yearning for a baby. Some days its not as bad as others.
ReplyDeleteIt is such a hard thing to try and make decisions in the IF world. I bet most people go through that - par for the course. Exciting though that you plan to start treatments again in January! I think you'll enjoy this month off not having to worry about things through the holidays.
ReplyDeleteAw yes, undecisive is my middle name. I'm excited for you guys to do another IUI too. Enjoy December. :hugs:
ReplyDeleteNo apologies needed. There are no right answers. You have the right to change your mind 100 times if thats what it takes :)
ReplyDeleteHope you are having a good day, saw that you are CD1 remember to always keep your eye on the prize :) you are 1 cycle closer to the BFP! I feel it in my bones! Do you think you are going to temp this cycle?
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