one week
It's been one whole week since we got the bad news.
It feels like it's been a decade. Or two.
I'm doing just ok today. I'm here. I'm surviving. I'm not happy, but I'm not distraught.
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I'm trying to focus on upcoming good things. There aren't many I can think of right now, other than my hair appointment on Wednesday. I need a change. Hopefully getting a stylish new cut, as well as a dye job. Thinking of ombre. My hair is currently a bit of a reddish brown. Aiming to have it dark, dark brown, with some caramel ombre highlights. If my new stylist gives me any reason to doubt her ombre-ability, however, I'm going for just the normal dye job.
Here are some pics of what I'm thinking (ranging from least-dramatic to most-dramatic):
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I wish I could put forth the kind of effort I exert looking for photos of hairstyles into my work. I am working on three projects simultaneously, and can't make any headway on any of them. Now I'm starting to shut down because I'm overwhelmed. I hate this feeling. The same thing happened to me when I needed to write my thank-you cards after our wedding.
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Other than the hair thing, I'm actually looking forward to eating healthier and exercising again. I have gained 8 pounds in two weeks. EIGHT. Thank you, Ben & Jerry's. Thank you, bakery cookies. Thank you, Cocoa Pebbles. I'm an emotional eater, can you tell?
It feels like it's been a decade. Or two.
I'm doing just ok today. I'm here. I'm surviving. I'm not happy, but I'm not distraught.
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I'm trying to focus on upcoming good things. There aren't many I can think of right now, other than my hair appointment on Wednesday. I need a change. Hopefully getting a stylish new cut, as well as a dye job. Thinking of ombre. My hair is currently a bit of a reddish brown. Aiming to have it dark, dark brown, with some caramel ombre highlights. If my new stylist gives me any reason to doubt her ombre-ability, however, I'm going for just the normal dye job.
Here are some pics of what I'm thinking (ranging from least-dramatic to most-dramatic):
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I wish I could put forth the kind of effort I exert looking for photos of hairstyles into my work. I am working on three projects simultaneously, and can't make any headway on any of them. Now I'm starting to shut down because I'm overwhelmed. I hate this feeling. The same thing happened to me when I needed to write my thank-you cards after our wedding.
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Other than the hair thing, I'm actually looking forward to eating healthier and exercising again. I have gained 8 pounds in two weeks. EIGHT. Thank you, Ben & Jerry's. Thank you, bakery cookies. Thank you, Cocoa Pebbles. I'm an emotional eater, can you tell?
I'm glad you're doing ok. I've been thinking about you. I love the hair color.
ReplyDeleteI love the second picture. It always feels nice to get fixed up.
ReplyDeleteI say go for the ombre. Saw this pic right after I read your post:
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I've been planning a new hair color too. In the desperate search for positives in this situation, I realized I don't have to wait until the second trimester.
Love the hair ideas!!! Change always feels good! P.s I emailed you back - not sure if you checked it or not?
ReplyDeleteAwesome pic/hair ideas! Very therapeutic, go for it!
ReplyDeleteI like all three looks. I think pampering yourself and getting a new look is just what the doctor ordered. :)
ReplyDeleteI like all of the hair choices!
ReplyDeleteI am with you on the emotional eating. Cookie dough is my weakness, uncooked Nestle's Tollhouse chocolate chip cookie dough!
ooooh nice hair, so THAT's ombre-ing. Hoping you get truly ombrefied in the way you desire.
ReplyDeleteLong week huh, time has morphed? Its a crazywalk, but the numbness/apathy (I found, anyway) can be a real buttfuck - out of all the polarity emotions
Oh, I love those hair photos! I hope the salon appointment goes well and is the treat that you deserve!
ReplyDeleteLove all of the hair pics, especially the last one!
ReplyDeleteIt's a good time to spoil yourself a bit :) Just catching up on your blog, and, I don't even know what to say... I'm so incredibly sorry. Thinking of you and hoping you're doing ok.
ReplyDeleteLove the Ombre look!! I want it so bad but dont know anyone as of yet that could pull it off!!! Cant wait to see your new do!
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