At some point, after one of the ultrasounds where we got to see our (living) baby with a beating heart, I gave my sister a whole box of tampons. Because, well, I wouldn't be needing them again for 9+ months, right?
The cost of the tampons isn't the issue here, obviously. But when the memory of me giving the tampons to my sister popped into my head, I felt... embarrassed.
It was some sort of symbolic gesture. Me giving her something I wouldn't be needing for quite some time. For the first time since I was 13, I wouldn't be having periods.
And thinking back on that moment today, I feel ashamed and embarrassed. I know I shouldn't, but I do. I feel naive. And gullible. And stupid.
Add this to the ongoing list of things I definitely WON'T do if I'm lucky enough to get pregnant again.
For shits and giggs, here is that working list.
THINGS THAT WON'T BE HAPPENING IF I'M LUCKY ENOUGH TO GET PREGNANT AGAIN:
- I will not be inviting my parents to an ultrasound.
- I will not be giving away my tampons.
- I will not tell anyone until I get into the second trimester.
- I will not be signing up for any weekly email updates about what size my baby is.
- I will not be signing up for any free subscriptions to pregnancy magazines.
- I will not go to Barnes & Noble and spend $40 on fancy pregnancy magazines.