wishing for ignorance
Ignorance is bliss, right? Some days I long to be ignorant again (in regards to TTC, that is!). This article was linked today on the forum I frequent: Women with O blood type may struggle to conceive.
Can you guess what my blood type is? Well, it's O negative. If you guessed correctly, I owe you a cookie! At first, after reading this article, I immediately thought, "Oh great, something else to overcome."
But then, reflecting a bit on my initial reaction, I find myself wondering why I think the way I do. I have been "diagnosed" with unexplained infertility. Which means there is no explanation (duh). So why do I think that this is something else I need to get past? I don't really know what the first hurdle is. Maybe, just maybe, this article is pointing me in the direction of the first hurdle.
I've never had my FSH levels checked. I went in to my RE's office ("RE" that is) on CD3 back in March, and the only thing I learned from this visit is that they saw my corpus luteum, indicating that I ovulated. My great friend LisaB mentioned I should also ask about my antral follies count. I wish my stupid "RE" would have mentioned any of this stuff back in March. So, if this cycle turns out to be a bust, I will definitely be getting my FSH levels checked.
So back to the title of this post. I find myself wishing for that time of ignorant bliss, of thinking my baby was just around the corner. Of not worrying about how my blood type affects my egg count. Of worrying what in the hell is wrong with me that I cannot produce a baby.
Can you guess what my blood type is? Well, it's O negative. If you guessed correctly, I owe you a cookie! At first, after reading this article, I immediately thought, "Oh great, something else to overcome."
But then, reflecting a bit on my initial reaction, I find myself wondering why I think the way I do. I have been "diagnosed" with unexplained infertility. Which means there is no explanation (duh). So why do I think that this is something else I need to get past? I don't really know what the first hurdle is. Maybe, just maybe, this article is pointing me in the direction of the first hurdle.
I've never had my FSH levels checked. I went in to my RE's office ("RE" that is) on CD3 back in March, and the only thing I learned from this visit is that they saw my corpus luteum, indicating that I ovulated. My great friend LisaB mentioned I should also ask about my antral follies count. I wish my stupid "RE" would have mentioned any of this stuff back in March. So, if this cycle turns out to be a bust, I will definitely be getting my FSH levels checked.
So back to the title of this post. I find myself wishing for that time of ignorant bliss, of thinking my baby was just around the corner. Of not worrying about how my blood type affects my egg count. Of worrying what in the hell is wrong with me that I cannot produce a baby.
One of the most painful parts of coping with IF is that you find out way more than you ever cared to about your body and your partner's.
ReplyDeleteI would definitely recommend that you visit a more competent RE who will do an FSH, AMH, check your E2 and P4. Check for fibroids and your tubes. I have a full list on my blog.
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I agree, ignorance was bliss ;) There was so much of a thrill when we were NTNP, wondering what might happen. I long for a time when our sex life isn't prescribed and scheduled by a dr. and IF isn't controlling every area of my life. I want to be ignorant again!
ReplyDeleteI can so relate. I don't know if it's worse to be "unexplained" or have a diagnosis. At least with a dx, you know what you're up against. Then again, a dx can be devastating. Unexplained is awful though...I mean there has to be SOME reason, right?! GRR
ReplyDeleteHUGS. I hope you are preggo right now, and never have to worry about this conundrum again!
PS...thanks for mentioning me! I feel semi-famous LOL ;)
I totally agree with this post! Ive had my fsh levels checked just not on cd 3! I agree get it done if your not preggo now! I hope you are though haha
ReplyDeleteThere were many times I wished I could regain the naive belief that it would always turn out ok.
ReplyDeleteWishing you the best of luck with this cycle.
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Hey, my blood is O negative too! What an interesting article! And ps, if you ever need some blood, I'm here for ya girl! lol
ReplyDeleteWell, I have type o- too, but my FSH is super awesome. And I started trying when I was 26. So... you never know, it's not necessarily a problem.
ReplyDeleteBy the way- what kind of RE doesn't test your FSH? That seems really off to me! Hmmm. Don't let them tell you that unexplained means nothing is wrong. I was unexplained for 4 years, and then found out I do have a subtle ovulatory disorder.